It’s very sad and it is very difficult to see your own ideas and dreams dying.

In 2017 while on Phuket I lost all my data in a computer crash.

It was kind of a new beginning for me. What one can do in such situation? One can cry about the loss and ponder about the cosmic and karmic Whys: Why the heck did it happen? Why the heck did it happen to ME? Why? or one can accept the loss and keep living with what one (still) has and advance forward into the unknown future with the head high up.

Right now I stuck in the dilemma:

I have a creator and entrepreneur mind and mentailty:

I easily come up with new ideas and the same easy I see what could be improved in places and products and of course I have plenty of my own ideas.

I have very mixed feelings, when my ideas get realized by other people: on one hand I’m happy that this is out in our world now and it is finally there, “it breathes and lives”; on the other hand I’m sad that it was done by someone else and not by me or by my (currently) none existing team.

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